Hello OCTOBER!

Saturday will be October 1st....I never thought it would get here and now that it is here...OMG I don't think I have everything ready. Haha! Figures! Oh well I know it will be perfect no matter what we forget!

Today Gabbie and I are going to get her dress altered and hopefully mine will be ready! I can't wait to put it on again! Ahhhh! Everything is turning out so great. As I check off my list with ease, it helps remind me that God is GREAT!

The boys will spend the next week with their Mimi and Daddy! OMG a week without them I am going to be twitching...but I have so much I need to get done before they come back, I might have moments where I don't even realize they are gone.

My shower, Sunday was amazing. Thanks to the most wonderful 3 ladies in the whole world. Gabbie, I know God had everything to do with how our lives were 7 years ago...because we would have never found each other, had we not had to go through what we did! Tracy, you are the best sister a girl could ever ask for. Mom, need I say more?

I can't wait for my bachelorette party! It is going to be crazy! So until then...31 days until I am Mrs. Joshua Veillon! Woop!

My Funeral?

So...Today one of my best friends buried her father. It is hard for me to have to see the people I love, hurt from heartache and things that I can't fix.

The Lord takes away people at different times. Like the preacher said at the funeral service, "You are never guaranteed another day. You have to live your life for today."

I have never thought, once about what my funeral would be like. Sure I have thought about who would take care of the boys, and maybe how sad my family and friends might be. But never have I did an areal shot from above of what I would see looking down at my funeral.

Will it be a packed house, will only a few come and go? Will my kids be old enough to know what is going on? Will they cry or cling to my casket? Will my husband look lost without me? Will my mom and dad be there to have to bury me?

It is really freaking me out to think about these things. And it really makes me reanalyze my life and my faith.  As much as it hurts to think about these things, I think it is God's way of making me step back from life and take a look around. Are the people in my life right now, going to show up to my funeral? Will they take a second thought to reach out to my family? Or will they see my picture in the paper and say, Wow I knew her....

Well now that that little brain fart is over, I just can't wait to get home and hug my husband and babies and be thankful for all the people in my life that love me as much as I love them. And cherish every minute I have on earth with them. Even though if we were to part we would be together again in Heaven, tomorrow is an uncertainty.