A Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day....

Today has just been horrible. It is Friday and it should be a wonderful day, but it is not. It all started with a phone call....

Dear God,

Why did God give me a soft, caring heart? If he would have made me a horrible, mean, cold hearted person, then I could get over these days in a heartbeat...but no, since God lives in my heart, there is no room for the devil.

All I can do it pray that God will show me the answer to the questions my heart is asking him right now. And a path to take to get through this situation in his favor. It is going to be hard for me to stop and see what he wants when, in this situation, my heart is fully for my side and not the other.

Please Lord take me in your arms and carry me through this, protect my family and my babies and have your will be done.

AMEN

Wedding Plans In Full Swing!

Thanks to my AMAZING Matron of Honor and Best Friend in the whole world, the wedding plans are underway. She is planning my shower and bachelorette party, while I am making sure I get everything else.

It is crazy how much I have planned in my head and how much I still need to take care of. The hardest part is having to do it all on my own, but hey, I will do whatever it takes to make sure that Josh and I's wedding is exactly what we want.

So the flowers are designed, the cake is order (but not paid for), DJ is reserved (but not paid for), food is planned (but not paid for), invitations are designed (but not printed or paid for)....

Actually the only thing I do have paid for is my dress....haha! O Lord...I wish I could get a loan and pay for it all and then just pay the loan back, but Josh is dealthly against DEBT. So....check by check the wedding will be paid for!

I can't wait to see how everything turns out! Woohoo! 95 more day!